Today I don’t feel good. I am overcome. Exhausted with the collective suffering that seems to be parading around in so many lives. Wondering if anything I do or say makes one bit of difference to anyone, anywhere. I’m tired. Tired of the struggles and the uncertainty I see and how heavy a burden it is for people to hold. I also feel depleted by the divisive rhetoric. The fight and the resistance. It’s all taking away my energy today.
So, what is there to do? Going to the gym and getting some exercise did not help. Eating a few Girl Scout cookies did not do the trick. Checking things off my To Do list didn’t satisfy me. Even an afternoon walk with our dog didn’t really help. Now what?
Well, maybe nothing. Maybe I just feel this way for now. Give myself a break from expecting that I should shake it off and hit the reset button. No, I’m just going to feel what this feels like for today. Stay hydrated. Cook a good dinner. Take a long shower and then go to bed. That’s it. That’s what I can do for today.
Just for today.
Tomorrow will be another chance to ask myself: Now what?
Paula
