Surrender to The Divine

I am feeling sad. Some life experiences are just hard. Breaking out of the ‘funk’ doesn’t even seem possible…and I don’t want to. It seems I just need to be here for a while…sitting with the sadness and feeling the whole mess of it.

It is not necessary to move through difficult life experiences at a particular speed. Often it is wise to sit with sadness or grief or loss until you have had the richest experience possible. In other words, I think it is important to give yourself time, to be gentle with yourself, to not rush to fill time with busyness, to allow yourself to cry and wail, to let it out…and then to come back to center and start again.

It is the process of surrender…the complete giving up into the arms of the Divine.

Poet Mitra Rahbar from her book Miraculous Silence…

I Come to You
I have come to You in quiet.
I have come to You in anger.
I have come to You screaming.
I have come to You not understanding.
I have always come to You.

I understand not the twists and turns my life has taken.
I understand not why the castles of my dreams
crumble so quickly before my eyes.
I understand not the bleeding of my torn heart,
through dark nights of sheer terror.
I understand not.

I ask You today to lift me,
for my legs are weak and cannot carry me.
I ask You to help me build a new castle of dreams.
I ask you to guide me,
so I can make sense of the senseless.
And, above all,
I ask You to bring vibrant colors
into the dullness of my world.

Let my heart sing of joy, of pride.
Let my eyes light up with the promise of a new day.
Let me feel whole again,
so I can be all I was intended to be.

This is my deepest prayer,
as I lay myself
at Your door.
Oh Divine,
please receive me.