Twenty years ago fax machines were the rage, if you had a cell phone you carried it around in a bag and I was diagnosed with cancer. Today is the day, June 6th, 2014…the twenty year anniversary of my breast cancer diagnosis. Twenty years is a long time. Twenty years.
I am not one to look backwards much…to look back at what happened that was beyond my control, to look back and judge myself or others, to look back and question my decisions. I am comfortable saying I have no regrets. This does not mean that I conducted my life perfectly…oh no! It means that I don’t carry it forward with me into this moment.
I have chosen not to bring the experience of cancer forward and wear it as a badge, as an accomplishment, as if somehow I am responsible for being alive. I have chosen not to take on the name victim or survivor. I have chosen not to set myself apart or above anyone else because of it.
I am remembering this span of twenty years…all that I have accomplished, all that I have become…and I feel content. I feel content and at the same time I feel the urging of Spirit to continue moving…to be all that I came here to be…to keep expanding into a greater knowing of our Oneness and potential and unlimited possibilities. And above all else to demonstrate love in all that I am, in all that I do, and in every situation and circumstance.
Today I am reminding myself to engage life fully and to be grateful for each moment…and to love…fully, deeply and unconditionally.
Much, much love,
Paula
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Paula, congratulations on your 20 year anniversary! You are such an inspiration.
Pam
“And above all else to demonstrate love in all that I am, in all that I do, and in every situation and circumstance”
Paula….and I thank you for all of the love that you have demonstrated, vibrated, communicated and hugged me through.
Lori (many, many Unity, Wilmington evening classes!)
Paula,
I’m especially grateful for this part of this post. ” I feel content and at the same time I feel the urging of Spirit to continue moving…to be all that I came here to be…to keep expanding into a greater knowing of our Oneness and potential and unlimited possibilities. And above all else to demonstrate love in all that I am, in all that I do, and in every situation and circumstance.”
How wonderful to look back on this time, this important marker and to hold it in this way.
May this next twenty years be as rich and gratifying as these last twenty have been for you!